Terrified....

Tomorrow morning is my rescheduled ultrasound. I am absolutely beyond terrified. I mentioned in my last post about a girlfriend potentially miscarrying, well she got less than stellar news back on Friday that her hormones levels are going down, and then I had a second friend find out Friday morning her baby passed at just over 9 weeks. Both of them found this out at their first ultrasounds. I know the chances of it happening to me as well are small, but it hasn't calmed my fears. I don't even have words to describe how scared I am to go tomorrow morning. I was never this scared with Finn. Its so hard to watch a good friend be so devastated. And to see it twice in one week is almost more than I can handle. Appointment is at 8:30am, so I'm crossing my fingers for good news, and glad I don't have to wait all day. Also hoping I at least get some sleep tonight - although at this point I'm not counting on it.